I dunno what it is about the night, but the energy is different. I can’t sleep it seems like, there is always something in the back of my mind I have to code up or a new idea I have to implement, and the clock is ticking… Tick… Tock.
I don’t understand some of these people around me. Like there is a lazy atmosphere in most industries. No one is doing anything seriously exciting or pushing boundaries like in the old days, the gold rush days, the oil days, the rush to the west to make a fresh start. The internet frontier is one of the greatest venues to be creative, but yet for some reason… there is a laziness to most people. It’s like they lack ambition or maybe they just fear failing.
I fear failing all the time, it’s probably what keeps me up. It keeps me coding to fix this bug for customers, and code this new interface to make things more easily understood. I’ve got a thousand new things and ideas to work on, and again, Tick Tock… that’s all I hear in the back of my mind.
So my question is, what the hell do these people hear? Do they think they’ve got all the time in the world? Do they think they’ll be here forever? When’s the time to strike? When they’re old and dying. I don’t get it… When you’re young, you should have a ton of energy to go after your dreams, and then as you get older you can sit back and relax and bask in the fruits of your labor, then is the time to sit on the beach, but even then it’s like how many days can you sit there on a beach?
I don’t get it. Several super successful people have told me and re-iterated this age old advice, “If you had all the money in the world, what would you be working on? What would you want to do? Whatever you choose, THAT’S what you should be doing RIGHT NOW.” I can honestly say I’m doing what I love, programming and meshing it with marketing. This is what I do, I love the challenge on the programming side of bringing an idea to reality. I have the marketing side of showcasing how it can benefit the end user. I love the frustration when the message is not clear and need to go back to square one and refine the message, the interface, the design, and go back to market.
But I guess this is not what they want. So I’m definitely not playing at the same level they are, nor can I really help them anymore. I can’t sit around trying to convince people and give them motivation to get out of bed, that’s a waste of time for everyone involved. So what I’ve been doing is simply and slowly quieting my footsteps. If they want me, they know where to find me, but me trying to give advice or impose my rhetoric on others… waste of time, and Tick… Tock. That’s time I don’t have…
Do you think your life is a joke? Such a joke that it allows you to sit around and waste it on trivial matters?